1. There’s a moving scene in “How to Cook Your Life” where Zen teacher & chef Edward Espe Brown speaks about sincerity. He says “Sincerity is the quality where you let your imperfections show.” Indeed, when we look at the origin of the word; ‘sin’ means without and ‘cere’ means wax. So even though we may be banged up and blemished by life, we allow ourselves to be seen without polish.

Sincere Teapots, by Toko-pa Turner

2. The effusive perfume of wild hyacinths.

3. The sound of Craig‘s flute winding up the stairs into the good rafters of our house, like a memory of truth.

4. A man running after his hat in a storm.

5. The passion of Sufi music, with its quickening tablas and seductively climbing oud.

6. A magical little cafe & gallery called Kizmet, tucked away in the deep south end of our island, which took my breath away for its lived-in beauty; the kind of beauty that can only come from living slowly into relationship with something.

Kizmet Cafe, by Toko-pa Turner

7. A beautiful passage in David Whyte’s The Three Marriages where he speaks of the welcoming face. He describes how, through the discipline of kindness, a face becomes welcoming, then bringing “things running toward him, especially the part of the world that might be shy and innocent; might be reluctant to trust itself to the world.”

8. Showing up with tenderness for the expanding and contracting ways of the heart. Instead of armouring against the unknown, allowing our vulnerability to encounter the edges of life. This is what David Whyte calls “the good kind of peril.”

9. My friend Catherine speaks of the flurry of insights that come like snowflakes by the thousands, which melt on her mittens when she tries to capture them.

10. How a friendship can make us rich! With its gifts of tenderness, generosity of presence, new forms and languages to elevate our experiences, the extra muscle for to carry our important pieces.

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For those who have been following my slow initiation into the World of Handmaking, you know that I’ve had a long yearning to make baskets! Last summer, I even tried teaching myself using wild grasses from my garden (and the internet).

This past weekend I had the enormous fortune to study basketmaking with a master. Like many  geniuses who hide away in the forest, Joan Carrigan lives on our timid little island and is one of the world’s greatest (and sweetest) teachers of this ancient artform.

This two-day workshop took place at Jane Stafford Textiles, a gem of a venue, founded mostly for weavers. The walls are lined with elegant looms under a rainbow spectrum of threading spools. Jane’s hospitality was above and beyond anything I expected, warming our weekend with sweetness and luxury.

Remembering

The moment the reeds were in my hands, I felt a deep familiarity. Of course there was a learning curve as I tried to discipline the reeds, but for the most part I felt I’d done this with my womenfolk for lifetimes.  The only thing missing was our weaving songs.

Joan’s teaching style was so clear with experience that I felt guided at every proverbial and literal turn.

Once I learned the 3-rod-whale weave, I was unstoppable – my fingers flew and my mind went silent. By the end of our first day together I had something that very nearly resembled a basket being born.

 

 

Nature’s Bounty

The next day, Joan introduced us to her wild collection of natural materials. Other than the reeds, which are native to Asia, Joan harvests all her own materials, plucking wild rush from the lake in her canoe, making alliances with tree fallers for sustainable cedar bark, and twining seagrass by hand.

Here you can see  I’ve created a band of twined seagrass and two rows of red cedar bark.

Next I attempted a technique called French Randing, which is a diagonal weave using short, flat reed pieces.

Before I knew it, I had made a beautiful basket which I’ll cherish forever.

Heart and Hands

It’s amazing how mysterious handmaking seems until we put our intention to it and realise that these ancient technologies live in our bodies and, with some gentle guidance, our heart and our hands can be coaxed back into remembering their symbiosis.

I am so deeply grateful for Joan’s teaching, which has returned this language to my fingers. I’ll never look at my autumn garden the same again!

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1. The distant hoot of owls in darkness not yet risen, luring us across the threshold.

2. The Christmas Cactus readying its tender buds for blooming.

3. The curls of fog like a cozying cowl around the collar of our mountain perch.

4. Moss and plum, rust and mustard, eggplant and olive, all suddenly colouring the season.

5. A sharpness in the wind, halos of red on treetops and orange at fringes, the wobble before the fall. Everything so urgently commands our notice now.

6. The earth is so dry, I hear the grass breaking underfoot. I walk slowly to give the crickets time to spring themselves, left and right, to safety.

7. Spelt loaf fresh from the oven, still swollen with heat, steam rising from inside the slice.

8. The lightsculptures on purpose again, keeping our insides aglow while darkness takes its rightful reign.

9. My mukluks, so much like pets, always at my feet.

10. My pride of dreamers, healing the impossible, turning wounds into art.

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1. The longing to hand-make beautiful things has overtaken me recently. It was seeded some 4 years ago when I was gifted a deerskin medicine pouch by a friend in ceremony. She had learned to skin & tan the hide herself, working it until the tassels hung gently and the slipknot moved gracefully along its braided path.

2. Recently, I was given another miraculous gift – an anatomical drawing of a long-gestating moth carved into the broad side of a reishi mushroom, by a woman who also wove her own baskets. So enamoured was I, that I set about weaving my first grass basket for a sister on her wedding day.

3. Since music, writing and dreamwork are all ‘invisible’ arts, I have an inextinguishable thrill whenever I create a thing in 3D. In a more pronounced way, physical arts feel as if they go on to live a life of their own once they leave my hands.

4. When a dear friend sewed me a vibrant string of prayer flags for my birthday, into which she’d woven symbols and objects that were meaningful to our shared history, I finally understood why hand-making calls me so strongly. It isn’t just the long efforts to bring beauty into the world, honouring that which made us by creating as we have been created, but the story that is embedded in the work itself.

5. The songs of the Aborigines are actually maps of their landscape. An elder who has never been to a place can navigate their way there if they know the sequence of the song. Each word and rhythm represents a tree, stone, or curve in the earth, making a ‘songline’ which they can follow to their destination. Languages between tribes are not a barrier because the “melodic contour of the song describes the nature of the land over which the song passes.”

6. The Shipibo are one of the many indigenous tribes in Peru who, throughout history, have recorded their songs, or icaros, in elaborately embroidered geometric designs that correlate directly with nature.

7. Weaving, sewing and painting our stories & myths into the things we make is a way of keeping our culture alive. Heirloom is a compound word, with its roots in heredity + looming. Indeed, if even one generation is denied their inheritance, the story and the way home may be lost. As it is said in West Africa, “When an elder dies, a library burns to the ground.”

8. I set out earnestly on this path of hand-making, hoping one day to pass on things of beauty to the young ones in my life so they may find their way home across the songlines, as I have been found by those who have made beautiful things for me.

 

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1.  We are blessed with a room full of hearts eager to listen to our big, round drums, secret chambered winds, ancestors summoned and stories sung.

2. Don’t you know that the real definition of bravery is being afraid and doing it anyway?

3. A fire roasting in the hearth, lanterns glowing on the path, stars freckling the night.

4. The afterglow of a performance well-received spills well into the next day, making everything exactly as it should. My heart drops down into place, laughs spring easily from my belly and even this exhaustion is felt as an honour.

5. In these illuminated hours, I remember Rumi’s teaching, “Each moment from all sides rushes to us the summons to Love.”

6. After the music, a sister comes very close to me and whispers that she sees now how much more she can open. Maybe that is all we are here for – to open, open, open until our petals fall off.

 

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Delicate as the opening of petals to a receding winter.

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Getting into that ‘interstitial realm’ from which creativity arises is not something I do – it’s my undoing. Relaxing the rational mind is what allows the genius of the unconscious to express itself. The sacred circle, and really any practice or ritual, helps us drop down into that deeper level of imagination, away from the direct sunlight of our attention, where we become more subtly reflective, like the moon.

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You are the exception to the rule, the wrinkle in the smooth, the yellow getting through.

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1. For a moment it seems like Spring, when I open the door to hear the birds going crazy with song. It seems after the first frost the arbutus berries have begun to ferment, making the birds drunk and in love.

2. Our dear friend & neighbour came to tears after being introduced to my new lightsculpture and the elegiac song of Craig’s anasazi flute.

3. Unexpected notes of true love from readers & dream clients, arriving in heart-bursty clusters to usher in the new year.

4. Bored with our eating routines, Craig and I have started going all out! Spanica-kale-o-kopita! Black Bean & Chipotle Soup with fresh cilantro & a toasted cumin yogurt! Personal Spaghetti Squash Lasagnas tucked back into their shells!

5. Music so sweet that it leaves us too vulnerable to continue playing it. Like something too lovely for sore eyes, we must occasionally retreat.

6a. In the aftermath of watching the Ides of March, waiting for the fog of cynicism to clear, we decide to start a cuddle-ocracy! So the next time you find yourself at odds with another? In a conflict or quandary? Just cuddle it out.

6b. And while we’re at it, you’ve heard of people saying we should banish the word ‘struggle’ from our dictionary. Well I think we should replace it with snuggle. As in, “I’m really snuggling with this paradox.”

7. Another garden lesson from Rita, watching the familiarity in her body around the plants, listening to the care in her voice as she speaks of their needs.

8. Morning looks like this:

9. Roasty from the fire in our hearth, we cuddle with the window open so we can listen to the owls calling from up above in the dark firs.

 

 

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1. Visiting the organic cafe where my Beloved has been working for the last month to find he has made everyone fall in love with him.

2. After a long housing drought, we are suddenly showered with options. As we are walking from one viewing to the next, we make up the Options Opera in harmonized rounds.

3. The beach is covered in  a white shawl of seaweed, blanched by the sun.

4. It is so peaceful in our borrowed cabin in the valley that it’s a revelation when I discover the community of radicals living tucked in the forest behind us.

5. Our first home together is a palace, perched on a mountain in the trees.

6. The owner of our house, an exquisite potter, is a Buddha. She is one of those special creatures who deeply loves being alive and thusly whom abundance reaches.

7. Inspired by my Beloved’s unfailing mastery in the kitchen, I decide to step it up a notch and make a tantalizing kidney bean biryani.

8. The summer air, thick with dragonflies and significance.

9. Willingness to turn down a lesser free ride to invest in that which is in true alignment.

10. Opportunities springing into colour like wildflowers.

11. Feeling into the physical sensations of Havingness – a confidence which sparkles in the eyes and laughs easily, which knows its value is counted in beauty & originality, which takes risks playfully and as a matter of course, which doesn’t distinguish between giving and receiving.

12. Intending to be the sort of someone whose belief in the unknown is so solid it provides shelter for others in doubt.

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